the story of ivan trussardi

well, i’m not surprised that my note has become a reality. i don’t know what to say, so check it out, i will share a little of my story to all of yoiu. this is my note right before i go to college ..

Far,

i don’t know what to do, i’ve been trying all this time

i tried my best to be your best

i tried to be at yourside when you need me

i will always stay with you without you ever asked me to do

i will always try to make you smile and laugh

i’m sorry, i’m sorry that my feeling annoy you

i don’t mean to annoy you, but this is my true feeling

aku sayang kamu, aku cinta kamu, aku butuh kamu

i never forced you to love me back, because this feeling is sincere as it is

i know that you only see me as a bestfriend

and maybe when you go to college later, within one to two months, you will have a boyfriend

consequently, you will forget me

so it’s looks like that i’m just a boy that only exist when you need me or you’re lonely

but it’s okay

i don’t care, if only in this way i could be with you, i’ll do it

eventhough, i know that in the end it will always be the same, painfull

what else should i do ? so you will open your heart for me

yeah i’m not perfect, yeah i’m not like the guy that you ever wanted

but right here, i give you a sincere love that you may never get from any other guy

i don’t care what my friends said, i don’t care

you’re my best, forever

even if i die, i will bring this feeling with me, and i will never let you go

and i hope, if you’re not with me anymore, you’ll remember

here, there is me, who will always

love you, Far ..

wow, after quite a long time we never met, and 2 weeks ago i met her. well, it’s not an extraordinary meeting for me. yeah, we’ve become a different person. we looks like strangers, i can feel it that everythings feels so cold. everything is so different than “the last time”. it looks like that we’ve never known each other before. my big thanks to ocha, without her everything will be so dead and quiet. because of her we find something to talk about. what did i do ? i just remained silent, holding a big fucking pain inside my heart that suddenly appear when i see her face. i only speak a little, it was only because they asked. i hate to say this but, i’m relieved that i can see her face again, i can see her laughing again, and i can see her smiling again eventhough it was because of her new boyfriend. tch, i hated it but i’m happy that she’s happy. i hope she has found a right boy. her boyfriend ? i don’t know him, and i don’t want to know. she herself is already made me tormented by this pain. and right now, i don’t know what i’m going to do. maybe i just hold it a little longer, again :)

God I’m begging you
If this wish will come true
I won’t ask for anything else
I beg you, with all the power I have
I promise I’ll protect her
Even all the warm moments
and even the guitar I finally learned to play
Even the Saturdays and Sundays and even any kind of treasure
I beg you, in exchange with all I own
I promise I’ll protect her
Forever and ever

Funky Monkey Babys - Love Song

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